Greetings!

The world of home remodelling is no longer a mystery. :) We finished the tiles in the master bathroom (floor to ceiling for the whole room) and it was quite fun actually... messy fun but fun nonetheless...

Signing the lease tonight with J. in SW.... pretty cool, and a bit scary and exciting all at once.

I'm looking at what my relationship to the ILP and LM will be moving towards. What do I want for myself and my life? That seems to be the question, and what accesses are available for those ends.

Back to work..

-T

It was late in the evening....
Been away for a while. But now I'm back. Had an INCREDIBLE trip to Norway for Jeannette's cousin Arvid and Monika's wedding. It was beautiful and emotional and loving and incredible all at once. I truly feel like my family is now fuller and I am I more than I was. Never leave Norway in the summer, a part of you stays there always. Or at least it did for me...

The word for the day is resisting. Resisting resisting resisting.  If I say it enough maybe I'll knock it off. Probably not but it was worth a shot.  Maybe I'll do some looking instead.

We are getting the house in order to be sold and I am panicking a bit about where I'll be living. The bet is never won if the wager is never placed. Small is sometimes distractingly comfortable, until it gets constraining. For now, I say let the dice roll and the chips fall where they may. I'm in.

I am struck by the web of incredible people who surround me and love me daily.  I really have a hard time letting them in. It must mean something I haven't seen yet. I have to give and not receive, poor me. Martyr gets old and lonely. Not to mention smelly.

When am I going fishing again you say? Fine question indeed... let me look at my calendar.  I'd say Sunday Morning sounds about right... Trico's hatching anyone... maybe over to Red Wing for a change of pace, though the Rush is calling my name in my sleep... which reminds me... night night all. May you allow your self the luxury of letting your people's love for you in.  It scares me still though I long for it.

I love you all and am actually present to it. What a nice change of sky.

(I just got a new GMAIL account - bigbirdtommy-at-gmail.com mail me something large... )
-T

I took on my debt!

24 months and I'll be completely clean again. Woot!

It is a very cool feeling, like one I haven't been thinking I could even have...
Like a weight is lifted indeed. :)

Who needs to eat anyway?

-T

I am a space cadet lately!

Left my lights on when I got to work this morning again, 2nd time in 5 days. Ouch. My head is in the clouds and my feet are stumbling around on the ground... Not very fun.

Between the engagement, the ILP, work and sleep deprivation, it's amazing I can walk lately.


-T

I have some REALLY Big news coming soon... :)

The communication course blows my mind...


-T

Very sleepy today.... 2:30 to 8am is not enough.... :)

Froze my ass off on Saturday, Was walking dead at B&N Sat Night.

D&D was a kick on Sunday thought I should have left sooner rather than later... I'm diggin Firlya at the moment... Lotsa fun and is meshing well into my image of her as a character at this point... I'm excited to play again... :0

Felt good about dealing with the breakdown over the chicago weekend. It definitely pays to get in communication NOW when it hits and not procrastinate the actions. The energy spent on stress and trauma are better spent elsewhere... It is really simple and really hard at the same time... God am I stubborn.

Little baked at work though... need more sleep....

-T

Tied up a dozen BWO (Blue Wing Olives) last night in 14 and 18 for this saturday morning on the Rush.... :) The word from Benteley's was that I missed a blustery, fishy morning last sunday. Though in retrospect, I really didn't miss anything... :)

My Tying Materials "Habit" is not really a problem... really... I can stop anytime.... The quality of the hackle has made me a believer, better ties from better chickens. I should be in marketing.

My head is trying to get in my homework for the Introduction Leader Program weekend coming up. Found my pencil AND my pen as per the advice from my "Coach of the Week" :) I'm excited about it. Gonna need to do some serious shopping to adjust my wardrobe up up up...

My heart and my head seem to be in a bit different space. Lack the courage and the convictions lately to make change, though I'm drifting in my head, my heart is still grounded...

Poking at Vstudio2003 with a stick. It at least is twitching now... rather than just smelling....

What a weekend! Saturday, fought a freaking dragon in our Temple of Elemental Evil Campaign. Went down fighting, yet again. (Thanks Mr. Cleric!) Sunday, THE BEST DINNER I HAVE EVER BEEN TO. Flavor of Minnesota for the National Liver Foundation. I won a tremendously cute doll for my mom, and we won a 25# Pearsons Nut Roll along with 4 Saints tix for our work! The silent auction was a hoot! That is an unbelievable amount of nut roll.

Did not wet my line... :)

-T

Snow? Who said snow?

I have a sinking feeling my Sunday fishing outing will be more exploratory than productive.

Sis is picking up the tux for sunday!! Woot!! I am so stoked!

My SELP was INCREDIBLE! I'm still glowing!

And my ILP awaits tonight.... :) I am ready. Amazingly.

-Tom

Updated info for the weekend!


I am going to a Black Tie Optional "Liver Dinner" Sunday night with the crew from Einsof and Ms. Jeannette. Gotta find me a tux!

-T

Discovering the joys of swimming, something I have never really "gotten". Definitely gonna explore it more. :)

I'm excited about the coming weekend, D&D Temple of Elemental Evil on Saturday, I nearly died twice back to back last session. The lesson is: I am not a tank, or a "wrassller". Potluck for my AMAZING SELP on Sat Night. I have never felt this level of connection with SO MANY incredible people. It inspires me just thinking about it. And last but definitely not least: Stream Opener in Wisconsin (for me) on Sunday! I'll be on the Rush with Tyler, chasing the brownies. :)

Back to the fixes....

-T

Random Google: Rush River Watershed report... Check out that picture on the front!

Woot!

Southeast minnesota is incredible.

15 fish on the Whitewater on saturday and 25+ on the East Beaver on Sunday!

Link to my fishing pictures from this past weekend!

:)

Spring is on the way
I'm pleased to say
Thoughts drift to sun
Eyes wander
Smiles ponder
Fun seems near
Have no fear

-T

Mmmm Chips and Guac and Burrito Bigger than my head.... :)

Montana is calling....

The start of every great day begins with 1. waking up, slapping your alarm. 2. being 1/2 hour late to a breakfast meeting, but being the first one there and 45 mins earlier than the only other person who appeared. 3. Ripping out your pants getting into the car to drive from breakfast to work...

And all things considered, I'm in a terrific mood! Life is strange.

-T

Put a fork in me. I am done. I need to go fishing VERY SOON. Thhhppppttttt....

Beautiful Sunday afternoon! Sun is shining, skiers are skiing. :) Thoughts drift to open streams and tight lines.....

Happy Valentine's Day!

I'm looking for things to do this evening and am not sure where the night will lead. Hair's cut, coffee's brewing....ready to go. :)

Currently jamming to "The Offspring" - Pay the Man. It is the wonder drug for the coding. Grooving and typing.... Geek Nirvana.

-T

New post for the template... I think.

12:15 and all's well... Gonna make the voyage home and get some shuteye to be back in the morning... I made the step into the frontier this evening and palms were moist... not what I expected. :)

I'm kinda stoked at the thoughts. It's been a while since I have been living. Holding patterns just go in circles.

Nitey nite nite nite.

Greetings from Bigbird!

I am sitting on hold with Verisign, waiting to fix a goofy certificate.... And waiting on Pizza!